Im going to be a senior in...two weeks? Something like that...I'm growing up and I don't want to! Who does? I have control over my life and sometimes that can be a little scary. What if I screw up? What if I can't make it in college? What if, what if, what if. There's definately a lot to think about. ..

I also am in a relationship, have been for almost seven months. It's awesome, he's awesome, it's pretty great. But everytime I think about college, I think about us. I know I am only 17 and still have a lot of growing up to do, but I really don't want to lose this guy. I can't see life without him in it. Melodramatic? Maybe. But that's what I feel at the moment.

I just hope that everything happens for a reason. I've always change my mind about whether or not I believe that. Right now I do. I moved from Oklahoma to Colorado in the middle of my Junior year, but now I know it was for the best. I like life here. There was just so much drama back in Oklahoma, but being somewhere new you are automatically drama-free. Meeting new people was pretty awesome too. And of course my boyfriend :). So i think moving was the best thing to do, even if I didn't think so at the time.

So now I have to get prepared for school. That includes finishing my summer assignment for english, which I just started. Also getting mentally prepared might be a good idea. Hopefully this year is a great one like everyone says.